Monday, December 6, 2010

Still hanging in there.

It's no accident it's been over a week since I've blogged.

I've reached the point in one's pregnancy when you can no longer call anyone without them asking, "Are you in labor?" People have ceased saying "Hello!" when calling me and skip straight to, "Are you on your way to the hospital?" Those who I haven't seen in a few weeks, upon seeing me now, comment, "I can't believe you're still pregnant!" My mom, who is currently visiting, is constantly answering text messages and phone calls from family members. I can't hear what they're saying, but I can hear her repeating, "No, nothing yet."

GRRRRRR. These are the reasons why I've been holed away, avoiding the world. I am intentionally not answering my phone, because, frankly, I'm sick of it. I haven't completely avoided facebook, only because I need to make sure that no one else is busy having a baby before me!

Anyway, I'm sitting at 39 weeks, 2 days right now- I haven't even technically hit my "due date" yet, and I'm officially losing my mind. I guess that's what happens when your first baby comes early- you sort of expect to be holding a baby by now.

Yes, I know that each pregnancy is different and each baby is different. But it doesn't help that I've had SO much prodromal labor this time, and by now, hours upon hours of Braxton-Hicks contractions. Over the weekend, I had 5+ hours of what *truly* felt like the Real Thing. Just when I let myself think I was a short while away from meeting my little one, the contractions stopped dead in their tracks.

Anyway, I have an appointment with my midwife tomorrow, and I'm really hoping for some changes, no matter how subtle. Last week I was 50% effaced and 3 cm. And yes, I know that the numbers don't mean anything. It's just that I really need a little encouragement at this point!


Kacie said...

AW! Big hugs. I know that the last few weeks really are a mind game.

If I had my baby on the 6th (which, I didn't), she would have been the same gestational age as my son was when he was born (38w4d).

So now I'm more pregnant than ever, heavier than ever, and wondering when she's going to come.

The weather has sucked lately. Snow. Hate it. So maybe she's waiting for a better day.

Also, my BP has been up. No protein in my pee thank goodness, but still a high BP could keep me out of the birth center. Yikes.

So part of me is talking to her about coming out soon so her living conditions don't get worse, and the other part of me is like, "Wait for a really convenient day." :)

My son's birthday is in 2 weeks and I could easily still be pregnant then and I'm trying to prepare for that.

It's just hard to be totally ready to give birth at any point in a 5-week window!

I apologize in advance if I have my baby before you do.

Kacie said...

Also, not really sure of the birth prep you're doing, but Hypnobabies offers a "Come out, baby" track that might help? I downloaded it today and listened to part of it because I was worried I'd face a BP induction and I wanted to have it ready.

SA said...

Sending labor vibes your way---and prayers for a safe/quick delivery, whenever the time comes.

Call anytime.

Vanessa said...

Dropping a line from the DDC. I am 39 weeks tomorrow! I feel yea-I went at 38 weeks with my 1st so this does feel longer. I love your FB profile pic, I saw it on Grace's page-she's my birth buddy from the DDC. I wish you some sanity in this final stretch.

-Vanessa (raspberry.swirl)

Ida Mae said...

thinking of you Momma! SOON!